Can't find you in this desert.

constant reminders no one deserved
yet i bleed it with every word
fuck me if i can't sit back
and watch them peace out on a curb
this foolish care i seem to have
fuck it i'm sick of seeing you sad
the tears pierce me like bullets
or like blades too fast to grab
i seen the pain in those eyes
when they look up at me in disguise
the young man do what he will
and yet the mother cries still
i've seen it with my own two
i've lived it and i've grown through
mental struggles mixed with heart
simply ripping you from the start
so go ahead and put up another front
waste your time with another stunt
i've never stabbed them in the back
i always bring it to the front
my most sincere apologies
allow me to let my head leak
as long as your lips have life
don't bother allowing the dead speak
zombies do nothing but cry
and moan about where they lie
don't act like i'm a stranger
i've never been that kind of guy
everything in its right place?
almost except a puzzle piece missin
phone calls, text, direct effects
you're hearing but you won't listen
rip out a chunk of my head
stress enough to leave the less dead
cutting out all the stitches
cause they weighing me down lead
can you dig it?
no really are you a miner?
or just a minor layer of paint
easily changed without the primer
a simple chance to prove it
before i officially go and lose it
I know one thing never let me down
so volume up to the music.

Holes in My Head

watching you motionless as i
pecked out your stained glass eye
the hidden truths of reality were
revealed in answers after asked why
something within you held them
your lips held no motion
only held in place like statues
no sight of contraction or convoltion

the taste of your poison
lingers on my lips left dry
unable to create noise
this crippled flesh left to die
awake or not
slowly the incubi approach
coughing up nothingness
i begin to clench my throat

surrounded too quickly
all i can do is brace my own
as they all enter my being
and i feel them in the shake of my bone
in my wake i am alone
but i can feel something within
another joins in my voice
you can hear them if you listen

the hole on my head
reveals interaction through blood
stained on the walls of the room
much darker than the blackest mud
the wire that held it together
lies on the floor unbroken
my eyes turn to face the red
and witness destruction open

Paralysis

i look upon my hand
all before it stands superficial
my sight begins to fade and
in my ears beckons a whistle
all seems empty
but in the void i feel shaking
vision then reveals a blur
earth can sense my awaking
mentally broken i attempt
to center my mental complex
my balance thrown off by energy
electrons cannot continue process
all seems nonsense
but a struggle seems useless
the sweat in my eyes drips
fully sheilding what the truth is

Unleash the Hell Within

i heard what you said
but i just chose not to listen
cause when i speak my mind
all of a sudden you go missing
like i'm talkin to a wall
might as well be talkin to myself
cause wisdom never heard
is simple word never felt
all you speak is garbage
i guess your outside isn't reflecting
the inside filled with karnage
that you're so good at protecting
knowledge im soon collecting
no longer need to hurt yourself
let it flow from your inner hell
you can finally loosen your belt

Let Me Worry About What I Do

i felt the reality of life
when i first held it in my hand
crazy shit i found out
the fallen in my pocket coudn't understand
nothing works with a plan
maybe that's why they aren't here
so when i pour my drink on the floor
it's something more i hold dear
a breath from my lungs
is more than a chemical reaction
but i'll treat it like it is
reduce thought process to a fraction
that's what you expect from me
or at least what you express to me
like im lost with future extacy
you will never get the best of me