Saved on a rainy day

here's that rainy day
i fell asleep but it still stayed
actin like i had a task
some sort of part i had to play
i awoke and had to focus
quickly grab a pen to write this
and nothing can describe
the degree of how much i dont like this
to many things juggled at once
i get lost or i get side tracked
something knocked me to my feet
and im just tryna get my pride back
they told me this would happen
but i disagreed i told em please
that shit will never happen to me
you heard my words im too hot to freeze
best believed im sittin free
puttin together pieces so i can see
my knuckles bleed, i sow what i reap
so i keep spittin up seeds
ive no more greed to feed
so i relate to the unconcious
nonsense that i can hold on to
that's whatever that's left upon this
big ass rock i seem to live on
but it's more like i once did on
a sure bet, yes easy money
that even i forgot to bid on
something i lost my grip on
reality it had to be
something i was dreaming
and then i crashed right into gravity